FINALMENTE

Before coming to Converse, I was just a baby.

I actually thought that maybe

I’d grow out of that name.

Seeing that we are all adults and are viewed as the same,

I actually hoped and prayed that I’d grow out of that name.

Unfortunately, I didn’t.

It’s my own fault, I couldn’t keep it hidden 

That I was only 17.

But I am 18 now.

It’s been exactly one month but I’m still shocked at how

I was able to fly home by myself and celebrate the day of my birth

With the things i go through mentally,

my experience could’ve been worse. 

Every day is still a slight struggle,

some days better than the last.

As time goes past I think it’s going too fast.

I still don’t know why I’m at Converse, but I know its for a good reason

every trial and tribulation, I know there’s a reason for this season.

In these few short months, 

I have grown and matured.

While my anxiety isn’t cured, 

I constantly look forward

to the day I am able to look back on this time of my life

and say with pride, “I appreciate that strife”.

During my time at Converse, 

I have been able to use my sense of independence

I have learned to manage my time wisely and take care of myself. 

I’ve learned that not everyone will like you, and not to take it to heart,

not everyone deserves to be a part

of your life, and that’s fine. To each her own. 

I hope they all know, they can always contact me by phone,

or email, or in person. 

I’d never be one to worsen someones day with any sort of negativity.

I’m still not sure where I’m going

But i know my future is glowing.

I hope to graduate knowing that I did my part

I hope to help everyone, no matter who you are.

My life Is still unclear and I know that’s normal. 

I hope that in the future, if you forget these words,

that you remember my face, and know my troubles are with the birds. 

I feel as though my "poem" does a great job of explaining my transition into college over the last few months. I did mention in class that I would share a lot more about myself in my blog, and I apologize but, I don't really feel comfortable doing so yet. There is a lot to know about me, and there are many things that I can share with you all. But for now, just know that I have experienced many things in my short life and I am continuously growing, evolving, and learning from those things. I have an amazing mom and a wonderful best friend (who I call my brother) who both give me constant support on a daily basis. 

The character that I'd most like to emulate in my own life is George I, but not to the fullest extent. His work ethic is something that I admire and would like to be able to acquire for myself. Although he was constantly painting and neglected his social life, he truly became one of the best artists of his time and I personally believe that that is because of his attention to detail and perfectionism. I would love to have the drive that he has in order for me to be the best that I can be in whatever it is that I decide to do with my future.

(Backstory on my best friend and I)

We met in 9th grade (I'd already been attending our school since 7th grade) and I was going through a huge change in my life. I'm a really, really shy person and the other kids at my school were extremely judgmental and pretentious and I figured that I had nothing to lose by going to him for advice. Little did either of us know that that one moment of advice would turn into nearly four and a half years of a bond that many of our friends, students at our high school, and some of the teachers truly admire. We have honestly become siblings more than anything else and we have taught and continue to teach each other A LOT. And, as expected, many people assumed that we were dating, but that was never the case. He is an only child and I grew up being the only child in the house so it has been good to have an older brother who I can look up to, and he has enjoyed having a little sister to look after. :)

(I hope this video works. It was the day after our graduation and we'd gone to so many grad parties over that weekend)

PS, my mom is AMAZING. I would add a picture of her but I truly cannot find any recent ones of us together.

-NTP